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Removing My Mask

A Letter from Michael Thompson III

Written By: Michael Thompson III, ‘21

Growing up, I always felt slightly out of place. I was grateful for the environment I was in, and got along well with my mostly white teachers, coaches, friends, and neighbors, but I always knew I had to “act white” if I was going to be fully accepted. When a friend would say that I didn’t always “act black” I knew that he probably had some biases against those who didn’t look like him. My response was to wear a mask of public identity and not feel comfortable living in to my true identity as someone created inGod’s image.

The pattern of avoiding true growth continued when I went to a private Christian college to play basketball. I quickly learned how to check the boxes in order to not be bothered, such as going to chapel, passing biblical classes, and watching my mouth. But these rituals never touched my heart. They were merely cosmetic, and I continued to wear a mask.

When I decided to transfer, I did not think I would end up at another private Christian college. Despite some hesitations, I decided to visit IWU’s campus and from the first visit felt like something was different. The focus was on the willingness to grow rather than performing the rituals, and I decided I was going to be my truest self while also fully embracing the culture. From the first day I joined the program, I was challenged to grow physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually without being judged if I didn’t have the perfect answer or if I brought my doubts to the table. There were challenges in my first year, including not getting the playing time I desired, but I found the sincerity of the pursuit of IAm3 from my coaches and teammates allowed me to be more intentional in my own growth. I found that over time, the same rituals I had tried before started to reach me at a heart level. In January I found my relationship with Christ and committed to fully pursue the IAm3rd life.

As the team came together in July with racial tensions rising around the nation, I was not sure what to expect. Through sincere and authentic conversations and humble listening and sharing, I personally went to a new level. I found that a team with different backgrounds, races and perspectives could grow together if they were united in their desire to pursue Christ first and others second. I felt the last shed of my mask come off and the acceptance and love I’ve gained from my teammates, coaches and environment have allowed me to more fully develop a worldview rooted in God’s Word, which has allowed me to truly live my most free self. I can’t wait to get on the court for my senior year with these brothers who are with me in the pursuit of IAm3!

Sincerely,

Michael Thompson III